This is what i said for art school painting , i marked low. Hah , ":Fuck them I PAINT CAUSE I NEED TO."

After hearing of, painting, as a lie!? By Jimi Bellaney 27/5/08

At first this whole concept (painting as a lie) seemed to me an ignorant perception of individuality. I went searching for answers from artist of the post abstract continuum. Gerhard Richter states that that the painting is its own reality. For me this means that the viewer the (individual) creates through his own imagination (which is the result of his or her own experience up to the moment just experienced) his or her own concept story /allegory of which they perceive. There is never right or wrong. But surface and paint which are antagonizes of an aesthetic experience which the artist created. Which becomes plastic? In the movie Pollock the critic, Greenberg states that all he wants is for paint to be paint and surface to be surface.

Freedom is a concept, a concept to produce hope and strength. But for survival reasons humanity will never truly be free.

Painting as a lie, Gave me, freedom, in art, in painting. It became my spiritual revelation. Stripping the need of representations or abstraction which docile my creativity. It be came the wholly trinity. Me, surface and paint. I am the shepherd and you, the viewer, are my flock. You are the tourist, I am the guide. But what you choose to see, or allow your imagination to see including your sub conscious, your perceptions, morals ideals etc, is entirely directed by your life.

I delved into my self, to stir up my passions. To drive my spirit which needs need to paint, to understand greater, what, why and even how, of the suppressed? To reveal the repressed. To say as much as I can, but still say nothing at all. Unless painting a still life or outdoors painting landscapes on the spot, memory filters that. Abstractions can act as filters, symbolic of memory and time.

All though my tools are paint and surfaces, textures of different media. The images are that which starts the ball rolling in the head but have no final conclusion. They have no end. Cause perception if agitated, can change. A stagnant mind is a mind of your basic simpleton. One that naïvely misses all, or remains to hard headed and thus narrow minded (that is not to be gullible, but look towards your self for your own answers) space is that which reveals reality for reality is boredom. Boredom is that which the mind has nothing to do but ponder. Rothko said something like that, so did Nietzsche.

Paint Is paint surface is surface. Art is my religion. It acts as my salvation, reveller. It’s the act of speaking but still has the ability of keeping it for myself. it is the light that I aim for and the hole that I can get stuck in. it is what drives me. Teaches and reveals.